for me, it still feels so surreal that i am married, that my husband is in the marine corps, that he is deployed. so much has happened in the past year and i am still in awe that it's all happened! add to all that, the fact that i don't live near a base at the moment. this often leaves me with the feeling of being far apart from military world (not that i have a super deep desire to immerse myself all the way yet!) and some days it's easy to not even feel like a "military spouse". i am just another woman, loving and missing my man, who just happens to be off somewhere doing his job. so it's days like this that i remember that, oh yeah, i'm one of those military spouse people! maybe part of it is being so newly married and the fact that maxwell is so new (ok, not THAT new anymore!) to the corps. it's easy to feel like this deployment is hard, that being apart is unfair or that being married to a marine is a tough job. but the truth of the matter is, i am so encouraged and awed by those women who have been doing this for years, have been through multiple deployments, have moved countless times, have been both mama and daddy, have faced so much on their own. they are the ones i look up to - what a great example for me, the self-declared "newbie" :) ok, i'm rambling, ha! anyways, thanks again to all those military spouses!

in other news, L has an ear infection. which is nice to know. explains her cough and why she still isn't over her cold. got her on antibiotics, so i am praying it fully clears up by sunday so that we can still go to her scheduled test on monday! i got an order of cloth diapers yesterday - i ordered four different kinds to "test" out which ones i like best before ordering a bunch. i'll be posting my review on the six different kinds i now have.